||无奈的空虚

这是个凉爽的晚上。

可是一整天下来却有一种感觉就是无所事事。怎么说呢？

10am之前-刚从云顶回来，睡不够。

10am-1pm-通常这个时候我应该是在大学的食堂里和系友一起午餐，谈天时间过得特别快。可是今天的我却在睡觉。

1pm-3pm-上着课。一般的时候我的头回转左望右，看看有谁可以解答我在班上的问题，然后顺便讲下笑话，谈一些废话。可是我却在上网。

3pm-6pm-放课后会可能去华角看报纸，顺便小睡一下，发下梦，然后准备晚上活动的东西。可是我却在赶着我的功课（一整天内最有意义的时候）。

6pm-8pm-多数是晚餐，然后回房冲凉。现在却在上网，玩sms。

8pm-10pm-应该是在讨论着辩论题，或者有开会，彩排之类的。可是我却在家里看>，Alien 很咳突，也流很多口水（黏黏的。。。）

10pm 到现在：依然是在线上，明天虽然有Story Telling 考试，可是觉得不想去温习，很懒惰，很颓废，心里面只有玩，睡觉，放假，辩论，吃，走街。。。就是不想读书，可能要等到Study Week才会有所警觉。。。无奈~

天气突然转热，想要冲凉，也想找个人谈天。

||落寞的城市囚犯

其实是真的有点失望，开始时的希望渐渐变得模糊，盼望的只是多一次的机会，如果时间允许我继续努力。不知道这个决定会不会影响以后，可是有些不习惯。


真正的努力？有吗？我质疑自己的能力了，如此的软弱，再一次的客观变得更悲观。如此的无助，我开始向迷惘的玫瑰做出真正的评估。是有点伤感可是结局已是如此，追究原因也是徒然，可能唯一能做的就是纠正以前的错误。怎么说我依然是不舍，感觉像少了些什么东西，毕竟是我一直都希望的，如今却落的如此沉默。

我并不会害怕，可能注定了是如此，不能再一起拥有分享的时候，不是很喜欢这种被遗弃的感觉，或许这是一个教训，可是却永远没有回头了。

或许不可再嬉皮笑脸了。。。

||种族利益共存的绊脚石

有些时候，应该在适当的时候说些适当的话，不是为了某事而说，毕竟都已经是成年人了。

马来西亚大选的成绩已经是定局，代表了人民的心声，而反对党也得到执政的机会，那么这时候原本的反对党是否应改想一想如何为民服务，以实力来打动民心以避免成为另一个翻版国阵？

现实上，好像并非如此。

在霹雳州，要否决霹雳国阵的2/3，反对党就必须赢取59席中的至少20席。热烘烘的成绩揭晓后，行动党赢取了比回教党更多的州席，那么以以上的成绩是不是应该由行动党的人选来担任霹雳州务大臣？

可是往往天意弄人，有些事情是在预测之外的。在霹雳州，由于州宪法规定州务大臣必须由马来穆斯林出任，那么拥有最多州议席的行动党领袖能否出任大臣一职呢？

就在这个时候，国会在野党领袖、霹雳州怡保东区国会议员林吉祥在遴选着霹雳州务大臣时，却抛下震撼弹拒绝接受回教党州秘书莫哈末尼查（Mohamad Nizar Jamaluddin）出任州务大臣。

该怎么说呢，马来西亚是个多元化种族的国家，正在寻求进步的同时使需要各族同心协力一起打造这个和谐的社会。可是在今届的大选后，山河变色，人民是为了寻求一个更新的执政政府，因为信心，也是因为相信通过这次大选能够大力打破各族的隔膜，原因就是不理肤色，而能干的领袖才是人民的希望。

团结一致的民心正如一颗幼芽，需要用心灌溉。但是，自林吉祥说出这般话后，伤害的不但是人民的心灵，更是打击人民对于未来新政府的信心。或许在华报内姑且会收敛一点，可是别的语言报章尤其马来报却是大造文章，有心者还可能利用此话题来挑起种族分歧，唯恐天下大乱！

就在这番话说出口后的第二天，林吉祥却突然间对本身在拒绝接受回教党出任州务大臣人选做出道歉，并表示他无意冒犯霹雳州苏丹和摄政王。

峰回路转的一面，本人真的不知林先生到底在玩什么把戏，可是尽管如此，他所发表的言论已经令百姓原本以为自己投给反对党的一票可以为马来西亚带来新的改革的信心动摇，自以为投选了错的政府！

种族问题一直是我国进步的绊脚石，有时候，能够站起来维护自己族群的利益是难得的，可是不要忘记在顾及自己利益的时候，也要能及时顾及群体的利益，毕竟有些时候有难可以同当，又福却不能一起享啊！

Theory of unconsciousness

"Democracy is the best revenge"

I moved my body along the street, taking so much of memories in pieces.

Nothing can ruin my life as usual, but sometimes people used to pratice pariahism when they try to give up, so upset to see such stories, what more those who hijacking materialism in such ravaged world.

Like this, totally vulnerable.

p/s: Genius is immediate but talent takes time. Gimme a break!

Another side of Election

Too passive in knowing politics, sorry to say that, it is nothing to make me feel that has the interest.

But something made me mad when I was on the way to my lovely home. When I was observing a traffic light, there was a flag with a stick fluttering to the right and blocked my vision , which it was inserted in ground in front of the traffic light. Moreover, when I looked at it, that is a flag about election! I feel so sad and the person who doing this is such an ass hole! Never thought of the consequences which may cause car accidents .

Another thing, people nowadays started to become concerned more about white pollution, a term coined to describe the unsightly tumbleweed of plastic bags blowing around on our streets, and guess what? Those so called" candidates" (i guess) putting and hanging all the plastic-ed banner from trunk to roof, you may see all the banners, flyers, posters, fell every corner, like a death city.

Something worst happened in my university. They used to be having this kind of election, and after the election , you can see the the promoting stuffs are distributed everywhere, until today, the moment I stepped out from my college, the banner of " Undilah xXx demi keselesaan universiti" is still sticking on the wall. Alhamdullilah...

I'm not promoting anything, but feel so sick with these kind of attitudes, no considerations, taking chances as granted, and again created another bad impression to local elections. I think I should complain to the Alam-Flora and urge them to clean up the banners immediately.

Taking chances

Give yourself a chance.This is what I told to myself always.

Of course, it is not encouraging you to do something bad, but something can benefit your living experiences and enhance your personal skills.

Some people might afraid of giving her/himself another chance, so scare of trying new things, but this kind of thinking should be recorrect, like what my lecture told me:" Learning new things won't harm your brain, and it is a great place to waste!"

Then, after taking the chances, don't waste it. May be you didn't do well, or the worst, failed but at least you stepped out from the mirrage, do it on your own and learned something.

So, don't take every chance as granted, appreciate it and take it as an experience so that live life to the fullest!!!

p/s: The idea was captivated by this sophisticated cover, enjoy~